Change

I had a post scheduled for today. But then a few things made me change my mind.
The first was that it was too close to my heart and I was scared. The second is that it was about my dad and I was scared that by some odd chance he might see what I had written. The third is that something changed my mind. That something is what I'm going to write about instead. When did life make me bitter?
When did I stop supporting people trying new things just because I do them? Am I really that girl? If I am, then I am sorry. 
When did I start looking a task and viewing it as something I can fail at, rather than something I can succeed at? What happened to make me start seeing everything in a negative way?
I used to be so positive. I always was willing to try. I never wanted to hurt someone. I guess that life threw a lot at me these past few years. I didn't always handle it in the best way. I let it get the best of me.
And I am not ok with any of that. I am not ok with being the negative person that I have been. And today that's going to change. I am going to keep my head held high and be the person that I know I am regardless of the actions or words of other people. I will be better for me and for the people around me. Because I want to lead a positive, happy life.