Ever since I got back on here, I haven't been able to take myself away.
I've been catching up on reading my favorite blogs and finding new ones.
And I just happened to stumble upon a blog and now I've decided to participate it her link up party.
And I decided I want to particpate.
This summer I started a journal.
I've never been one to keep a diary or journal.
But after I started mine I realized why so many people do it.
I try and write down all the things I am thankful for in it.
Almost every night I make a list of the moments that made me appreciate being alive.
And so today, in the spirit of Thanksgiving and being grateful, I'm going to share the things I am most thankful for.
In no particular order:
My sweet, loving family.
My mother is my very best friend. She always has been and she always will be. Her and I have a relationship that I wouldn't give up for anything. She supports me in everything I do and she loves me no matter what. She's the best thing I could ever have asked for. She taught me so much without even meaning to. The way she leads her life inspires me to be a better version of myself. What I love the most about her, is that we can joke around and have fun together in a way that most mothers and daughters can't. She knows me better than anyone.
My brother is pretty great too. Even though he can be a pain in the butt, I would stand up for him no matter what. We fight all the time. And not just the yelling and screaming kind, we punch and kick and really go at it. But growing up with a brother like him taught me to be patient and kind. When we aren't fighting, we have a great time together. We always watch movies or play video games together. It's pretty great. I even enjoy our fights sometimes.
I don't honestly know where I would be today if my faith hadn't been such a big part of my life. I am not perfect and I have my doubts, but God has helped me through so many rough patches and without His guidance, I wouldn't be the person I am today. I always had an easy childhood and never really had to lean on God, until I started suffering. I had a rough junior year of high school and it really hurt me. God was there every step of the way to hold me and tell me I was going to be ok.
My relationship with my dad has been far from easy. We don't really know how to talk to each other. When I was younger I wanted nothing more than to be a daddy's girl, but it just didn't work out that way. Him and I clash on so many things. I try to not talk too much about my relationship with him on here because it's something that hurts me a lot to talk about. I hope that one day he and I can have a stronger relationship. But he's taught me a lot as well. He has shown me that everyone has their own way of loving and it may not be how you want it but if its the only way they know how its what you have to work with. I've learned a lot about life through watching him. Mostly that no matter how much you love your job, your family should always come first. Things aren't guaranteed and you have to work hard to keep the things you want in your life.
As I've mentioned before, dance was my whole life. Even though at the end, I was so burnt out that I couldn't stand it, it taught me so much. I learned discipline, determination, achievement, strength, courage, and so much more. Dance showed me what it was like to be good at something. It showed me true passion in a way I'd never seen before. Although that phase in my life is over, I am glad that it happened. I loved it while it lasted and I wouldn't change a thing about it.
I started this blog as way to help myself. I had been struggling for a while. I wanted something that could help me release all the things I'd been feeling and become more positive. So that's what I set out to do. Blogging introduced me to a ton of things. My favorite being Pinterest. (I'm completely addicted). It also showed me that everyone has problems and that what you do to make them better is up to you. Feeling sorry for yourself gets you no where, you have to take control of your own story.
Him and I have been going through a rough patch, but it's taught me a lot. You have to be willing to do anything for the people that mean the most to you. He's my first love and I would love if he is my last. He makes me a better version of myself. We bring out the best in each other. He makes me laugh on a daily basis and is always supportive of me. I can't describe how much he means to me. I know it's hard for people to take it seriously when I say he's the one I want forever when I am only 18 but I think that true love is ageless. It doesn't matter if you're 15 or 50, if you find the person who you're meant to be with, then you should hold on to it with everything you have.
All the little things
Everyone has their vices that help them get through the day.
I'm a big fan of chocolate.
So I am thankful for every little thing that keeps me going throughout the day.
Especially the days that are hard, because sometimes its the little things that make it worth continuing.
I'm sorry this post was so long, but I've really missed blogging!